chin up

feeling a little down at the moment.

everyone has everything planned and set out, they know what they're doing. And here I am with a very vague plan that wasn't really the plan at all. I'm being left behind. i have friends going all over the place, deby, keele, birmingam. but i'm not begrudging them their success and promising future, Good luck.

i suppose i like surprises which is my future, but whose ever goes to plan anyway?


well we still have the summer together and the world cup to enjoy

kez*

so the tests begin...

So i have my first exam tomorrow. statistics, yes even the name is boring. but i have to do it as its part of my maths course. wish me luck.
btw x = 5

when's its all done...

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douchebaggish

so today i was shown that there are a lot of people out there that really don't understand dencency or consideration.

70% (30% are not) of the guys i know are douchebags. yes i did just use that word. pretty much all of them have slept with someone when drunk and can't remember what happened. almost all have cheated on their girlfriends and lie to them daily.

And the girls! put on as little as possible to show all their bits uptown and wonder why the guys treat them like trash.

but you know the ones that really get me are the people who act like they have some kind of decency and then treat people like they couldn't care less about their feelings so subtley you can't really point out where it happened. they're ones you have to watch out for because they're so easy to get on with that it's impossible to stay angry with them and so easy to forgive. until of course you go home and remember all that was said and done and then you wonder how they do it. (they probably should go into the law profession)

of course no one is perfect, but you know... there's a fine line

All this came about when i started thinking that it's going to be damn hard to find someone who thinks like i do. i seem to be attracted to those nice but douchebaggish guys. learnt some lessons, maybe a bit more prepared i suppose. i try my best not to be hypocritical; of course i make mistakes too.

well that was an insight into my mind, maybe a tad bit cynical today but oh well not always sunshine and buttercups.

"i've got my values, and if you don't like them, well i've got some others" - Mark Twain

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a rant at customers!

yes i am about to have a little rant.

STUPID customers at work today are just plain nasty... :( i'm sorry i forgot to put fries in your bag but at least now you get some free sauce, bonus! so stop shouting at me please. would you rather i be sorry for 'accidently' tipping coke over your head. or slamming the window in your face and refusing to serve you?! well then, be nice.

AND... i'm not the one cooking the food so the fact that it says 'plain' on the box makes me assume others have done their job and left off the extra stuff, no good lecturing me about job effectiveness or whatever you were trying to get at -_-

ok rant over

got some cool news anyway. i'm going to be doing a sponsered walk up snowdon in wales. it's for a charity that helps families with accomodation to be near their children who are in specialist care in Birmingham's children's hospital. i'll find out the actual name. 22 july is when it is. just need some sponsers. hello friends and family.

when i get to the top
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sunshine in england

yes, it's a miracle, a oxymoron in itself >> sunshine in england

today was apparently the hottest we've since i don't know when but then again they say that quite often. maybe to compensate for the constant cold.

so today i donned a dress and sat outside in the warm sun to soak up some rays. TIP: don't be niave and think that you can do this and study. yes i may be able to multitaks but i ended up with a huge headache not the best end to the day.

and here is my bella, she brings entertainment to my life xx

today made me realise that i miss the hot climate that was South Africa. can't wait until december.

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thailand hopes

hi :)

thought i'd put some pics up of what attracted me to thailand

they have such a rich culture and such different views of the world that it would be interesting to get to know the people there.

i want to ride elephants, eat thai food, learn their ways in a sacred temple. maybe one day i'll go. well there you go.

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No ones laughing at God...

i stubbled across this song yesterday and the lyrics are quite profound.
it's so easy to not believe in anything and mock those who do rather than find out why people all over the world believes there's something. i have more respect for someone who openly rejects the idea because they've looked at all possible scenarios than someone who laughs it off because everyone else is.

I like the chorus because she says God can be funny, He's everywhere. LOL just had an image of closing a door and there God's sitting behind it haha. He's the jokes, the delicious chocolate on your face, the crazy dancing when you can't contain joy.

you probabley have guessed then that i do believe in God and i call myself a christian, but believe me i have definitely not got it figured out!

Michelle, my friend is in malawi at the moment on a mission, so brave. she's in my prayers. if you can keep her in yours.

when i get to heaven
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Thailand craziness

i've been thinking about going to thailand to see the beautiful country.

how sad that i'm having to rethink the whole thing due to riots from anti-government red shirts. hmmm not sure what they're protesting. I know they want some other millionaire guy to be president but that's about it. people are dying for this cause and i don't even know what it is.

i'm only going in april 2011 so maybe it'll be resolved by then.

when i eventually get there

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revised plan

some good input from some friends has called for a revised plan (which is basically a big pool of ideas, not necessarily all to be done):

1. Roadtrip with Michelle >> learn to surf/kite-surf
2. Visit Thailand
3. work a lot at current job >> mackies
4. join the army >> that's if i can hack basic training
5. join the circus
6. learn a language >> french, kantonese, italian
7. take an art/ pottery class >> just so i can say that i have
8. camp-america >> sounds cheesy lol
9. maybe study with UNISA >> anyone know much about that?
10. work in industry for a year
11. some volunteer work
12. learn to drive

well there you go

right now i'm late for a date with the white rabbit
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14 may 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM X

my mom is amazing :) love you

Feist - Mushaboom

from the film 500 days of summer :) such a great film

kez*

The Fratellis - Henrietta

I love the fatellis
I can imagine driving along on my roadtrip in december with their Castello music album playing

one of those days

It's been one of those day :/
i was sitting in chemistry class and i could feel the life seep out of me. I don't know when but chemistry is officially boring to me. I mean fall-asleep-drool-on-the page-lets-doodle-on-revision-notes boring!
and i had another idea for my 3 year gap thing only to crushed back down to size again. i know someone who worked at virgin atlantic and she got free holidays all the time, but you need to have a british passport -_- once again my plans are thwarted!
always at a disadvantage i suppose, ah well

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Realisation

Have you ever thought about something so much that you freak yourself out?
Well i've been thinking about this 3 year floating thing. THREE YEARS!!! i will have forgotten everything i've learnt in school :O:O:O how will i do a science degree tif i can't even remember anything. lol maybe i'll create a new virus by mistake, i swear it wouldn't be on purpose. i'll be old and ignorant; 21 when i start...
the only thing i can think of is to find a job/appreticeship in a lab. I'll add that to the list!

but as someone once said; don't not play the game, for fear of striking out

so head first i'll dive in to some crazy maze where i'm not even sure what or where the outcome is.

c'est la vie

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an introduction

I suppose I should introduce myself. I am Kez (decided not use my full name > sorry stalkers/perverts go look somewhere else); a British South African on the verge of something that's either amazing or catastrophic. I'm writing this blog because I want perspective which is cliche maybe but hey sometimes cliche just means you've got it mainstream for once. I don't profess to be a writer, in fact i'll warn you now my grammar and punctuation will be sporadic :) <<<>

Let's jump straight in then. I'm screwed! I've recently been told that I am classifies as an international student so I would be paying 12 000 pounds a year at university. Unless i win the lottery or inherit huge amounts of money anytime soon, I can't afford that. I've been in the country for 2 years and i applied to uni thinking that the three year rule applied, SURPRISE! it doesn't, they tell me this after I get their offer.

So now I have declined all my offers and decided to take three years and try again when i'm a UK citizen. This blog is to document my endeavours (? can't spell) to remain sane. By the way I was going to study biomedical science, so it's not like i just did any A-level and jumped into some wishywashy degree. 3 years is a long time...

so far i have a vague plan for the first year:

1. do a roadtrip with Michelle (south african friend) in South Africa
1.1 Where i will learn to surf/ windsurf
1.2 see all my old school friends :)

2. visit thailand
3. work a lot to afford all this (saved quite a bit already actually)

other ideas (supplimented by friends):

1. join the army
2. join the circus
3. learn a language i.e. french, kantonese
4. take an art class

5. take a pottery class (hopefully followed by a scene from ghost)
6. get adopted by a british citizen > have no idea if that will actualy work
7. try the whole work-at-a-camp-america thing

I have this almost urgent need to travel and see what there is to see, but right now i just have to get through my last exams> maths, chemistry and biology

NERD!

To the study then...

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(I'll send you a postcard)

Kez*