results day

i have to post the good and the bad. thats what a blog is i suppose.
i got my results and although they would be considered great by most people, they are just not good enough especially when i was expecting better. i wanted ABB i got BBC. 3 marks off an A in maths.
when i read the paper i could feel everything build up and then it burst and i was in tears. it just seemed to me that nothing i ever planned or worked for went right. i know i was and probabley still am allowing myself to sink into self-pity.
to top it all off i realised that if i want to do resits i will have to postpone my South Africa trip. nothing is going the way it's supposed to.
and now we're all going out to celebrate. i'll celebrate everyone else's success. what else am i meant to do.