frustration doesn't even cover it

no I don't have a job yet. yes i'm still living joburg with my family and yes i'm frustrated out of my mind!
both my mother and i are searching for jobs, hers obviously more important. she's had an interview. didnt get it. she applied to others and got responses like "this position is only for black applicants" WHAT THE HELL!
South Africa is not over it's racist past, don't you believe it what people say!
while i'm happy to be home. recent events highlight why we thought we could find a better life in England.
i'll keep trying and hold my head high.

in the mean time, we're sorting through family junk which has accumulated over the years and i found some old diaries. it's strange to read back on them but it's so enlightening. my teenage mind was so insecure. there was a lot i worried about. a lot has changed but not so much either.

P.S. my results for exams come out this month. hurry up already :)

family

Ever been to Wing Wah?
it's a chinese (i think because i'm terrible at distinguishing between asian food) buffet style restaurant. mom and i met up with my cousin, my aunt and her new husband and his brother and family. a little family get together. i've never eaten such amazing food.
the seafood was my absolute favourite. i wish i had taken pictures. but the best part was the company. there's nothing like the comfortableness that you feel with family. while travis and i freaked people out with our coke floats (coke and ice-cream) otherwise known as a 'brown cow', the 'adults' laughed, boasted and moaned about their offspring. :D
here's to family

kez*

fare

On Saturday, my mom, my friend and her family want to a fare in town. we were walking towards the park, we saw the steam engines parading through town. That's when i realised it was a steam festival. lol yeah a bit slow on the uptake.
The date on the camera is out of date though, i'll have to figure out how to change that...

And then they get little awin the park. Nice day out with some fun people, and the sun was shining too :)

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family

I recently spent some time with my cousin Travis. He moved to England before i did.

anyway i realised upon spending a couple of hours with him, how much someone can change in a small space of time, but also how much of a person stays the same. He was the same slightly cynical person but he had long hair and an eyebrow piercing. The once moody teenager has now grown into a mature, self-assured young adult although he's only 15 well nearly 16. Big changes in life can do that.

I just hope he doesn't lose his roots. I hope he remembers the berg wind of port elizabeth, the street hawkers with the naartjies and the beautiful sunsets of Africa. I hope he doesn't push that back and just put on a new face because that will always be part of him as it is a part of me.


The first picture is in titsikama with my best friend michelle, and the second a beach near Port Elizabeth and the last the only picture of travis and me with his girlfriend emily at his mom's wedding. I'm on the left.

I wonder what people at home will say when they see me next, how much have i changed?

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