eat. pray. love review :)

I have finished it. and it definitely got me thinking.


I love the idea that she studied different religions. the problem i have is sometimes i thinks she picks out aspects of the religion and uses it her way. if you're going to do that, you can't really say it's from that specific religion. it's taking it out of the context that it was intended to be used. It's like those people who use Bible verses to justify some actions; they've taken it out of context and used to their benefit.

but i do understand thet this was her journey, specific to her and she writes it beautifully. especially when describing the people she meets. it' one of the reasons i love travelling.

i also like her take on this connection we have with God and how the 'universe' (dont know what other word to use) binds everything together. everything is connected.

all in all i like the book and will read it again in the future

frustration

every single plan I've made since i've got here has crashed and burned (and then exploded for good measure)!

working as a camp counsilor in america apparently cost between R9 000 and R12 000 WHY do they advertise less?! maybe that's a stupid question but it would have saved me a lot of typing about my qualities and skills if they just advertised truthfully. I think one of the skills they test is essay writing. the amount of personal statements that I wrote...

anyway the other option in a working holiday somewhere so i look into New Zealand. South Africans aren't welcome -_- we are not allowed visas!

now i'm looking into australia or maybe even china or maybe i'll just explore good old south africa some more. i haven't seen a lot of it. i'd like to see the drakensburg mountains, maybe even climb some of it if i feel active :)

so i'm keeping my chin up and my eyes open for opportunities

on other matters; i went fishing yesterday. ok we didn't catch anything but while i was standing thigh-deep in the water, i thought "this is nice". we had a braai (barbeque) behind us and the sun above us. it was idyllic.

It's good to be home

empty house

slowly but with increasing speed, the house is emptying around me. in a couple of days i will be sleeping on the couch because we have sold our beds. haha might set up a tent with a sleeping bag for the full effect.

i have my last exam on monday and then i'm jetsetting to AFRICA, my home :)
it's been strange trying to balance everything. i've said goodbye to everyone and now i'm kind of in limbo. i want to see my friends again before i go but i know it won't make a difference. it'll just mean more goodbyes. i've had excellent control, not a single tear in their presence. i hate crying in front of people, i usually leave it for when i'm alone.

so everything is finally coming together. now to just fit everything in my suitcase :/

i wish...

i wish i could travel across the world without a care
i wish that volunteering your help or skills didn't cost more than a selfish holiday somewhere exotic
i wish money didn't change people
i wish i could make a difference
i wish i was a millionaire
i wish i was a homeless person
i wish i could see the world for what it is and not cringe
i wish that my country could see thats it's moving backwards not forwards
i wish i was home
i wish i could stay here
i wish i knew what to wish for...

mixed emotions

i'm like a cocktail of emotions just floating around. different ones keep floating to the surface. i have a really good night, a laugh with friends and i feel like life couldn't get better.
but then the next day is like the biggest anticlimax. I start to think about all the things i want to do and all the stupid obsticles that keep popping up. money being the main one i suppose. Can't go to university yet, can't travel spontaneously because i have to apply for visas for each place i want to go. i mean what exactly does that leave for the right here, right now. elbow-greased-hard-work :/ great

or i'll be on facebook and i'll see a picture of my friends in SA and i can see exactly where i would be standing. It's not even that i want their lives to stand still but sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i stayed. of course i love my life here, it's different so i suppose there's no comparison.

life is so confusing sometimes, really. God send down someone to point which way i'm meant to be going please, thanks, much appreciated.

Kez*