damn passport

i have to go to london... again
there's a signature missing on one of the forms for my passport renewal -_- was not impressed with this information, surely they should have checked the first time!!!
so i've rallied some friends to come with me so we'll make it a good day.

results day tomorrow. i can actually feel the wave of panic rise up in me when i think about it. i'm terrified i've messed them up. not that i'll need them soon as i'm still unwanted by the universities in England. ok thats a lie they want me just not as their own, they want to bankrupt me while educating me. go home or pay up basically. a bit cynical but yeah

lost prophets playing in the back round: It's not the end of the world now darling, but i can see it form here

how fitting
Kez*

cinema

TOY STORY 3
i may be nearly 18 but i absolutely love animation and the fact that i watched the first one when i was little, the same age as andy was in the film, and now watched the third one when andy is my age now was quite moving.
a good laugh with the friendlings
but i think i need to learn moeny management, my method doesn't seem to be working at the moment.

kez*

i wish...

i wish i could travel across the world without a care
i wish that volunteering your help or skills didn't cost more than a selfish holiday somewhere exotic
i wish money didn't change people
i wish i could make a difference
i wish i was a millionaire
i wish i was a homeless person
i wish i could see the world for what it is and not cringe
i wish that my country could see thats it's moving backwards not forwards
i wish i was home
i wish i could stay here
i wish i knew what to wish for...

mixed emotions

i'm like a cocktail of emotions just floating around. different ones keep floating to the surface. i have a really good night, a laugh with friends and i feel like life couldn't get better.
but then the next day is like the biggest anticlimax. I start to think about all the things i want to do and all the stupid obsticles that keep popping up. money being the main one i suppose. Can't go to university yet, can't travel spontaneously because i have to apply for visas for each place i want to go. i mean what exactly does that leave for the right here, right now. elbow-greased-hard-work :/ great

or i'll be on facebook and i'll see a picture of my friends in SA and i can see exactly where i would be standing. It's not even that i want their lives to stand still but sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i stayed. of course i love my life here, it's different so i suppose there's no comparison.

life is so confusing sometimes, really. God send down someone to point which way i'm meant to be going please, thanks, much appreciated.

Kez*