(a crypitic truth)

i sorted out some long pushed aside truths at 11 o'clock last night. over texts, a bit ironic really seeing as he did his most selfish damage over a similar media. i told him why i thought he was acting like a spoilt child, why i thought that he was stronger than that. as soon as the going gets tough he spins around drunk and blames the world. take resonsiblity man! i have accepted his apology, so now we can look each other in the eye and honestly say that there is no more elephants in the room. i have said my bit, the air is clear(ish), and yes his dimples still make me smile but that does not mean a thing.

(just to document the event for myself when i'm old and looking back at this blog and remembering)

a little adventure

don't you just love those days when you start off a day terribly and then something unexpected comes up and it turns out to be a great day.
chemistry exam on yesterday but we went for lunch at the pub afterwards and in walks two of my hobo friends ;) so we jump in cars and head off to tettanhall pools. i love little adventures like that. it was a good end to a stressful start to a day. love you all
going to miss seeing everyone at school. going to have to actually organise things. gosh!

Mark the gayboy who keps us entertained. i do love your hair mark

me and chloe such a lovely pic even if half our faces are missing.

making memories. good luck for the future everyone.

much love

Kez*

old new memories

My south african friend and her family came to england on a holiday so i met up with them in birmingham for a few hours. probabley not the wisest thing i've ever done seeing as i have a very important chemistry exam tomorrow but i had to see this special friend of mine. she hasn't changed a bit and now i realise how much my accent has changed :D
after not seeing her for two years i thought it would be awkward but it was like we just picked up from where we left off.

me waiting for the train to go. it was too hot to sit inside it.

good couple of hours

p.s. england are out of the world cup 4-1 to germany

Kez*

Paolo Nutini - Coming Up Easy

nice song but the video a bit strange :D

football/soccer

:( sad for SA they won against france but by goal difference they are knocked out.

BUT...
ENGLAND are through so i'll be watching them :) great performance and in my home town as well x

summer league

We lost our first game last night :( it was our second last game of the summer league season too but what fun we had before. acting out some cool runnings scenes: "wana kiss my lucky egg"

"sanka you dead" "no maaan"

haha
and constant requests for lessons in languages from south africa

"how do you say hello?" "molo for one person and molweni for more"
"that sounds jamacan"

figures

Kez*

mixed emotions

i'm like a cocktail of emotions just floating around. different ones keep floating to the surface. i have a really good night, a laugh with friends and i feel like life couldn't get better.
but then the next day is like the biggest anticlimax. I start to think about all the things i want to do and all the stupid obsticles that keep popping up. money being the main one i suppose. Can't go to university yet, can't travel spontaneously because i have to apply for visas for each place i want to go. i mean what exactly does that leave for the right here, right now. elbow-greased-hard-work :/ great

or i'll be on facebook and i'll see a picture of my friends in SA and i can see exactly where i would be standing. It's not even that i want their lives to stand still but sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i stayed. of course i love my life here, it's different so i suppose there's no comparison.

life is so confusing sometimes, really. God send down someone to point which way i'm meant to be going please, thanks, much appreciated.

Kez*